There was a friendly competition at the 800 Larkin Open Mic this last Monday. I did well on stage and won the Shrek Chia pet door prize! (Yay me! *Clapping) The next day I received a message from someone in the audience that said, “You were so friggin funny last night!”

This was my emotional female response to his generous compliment:

Thank you so much for this message! It meant a lot to me, especially right now. The truth is I went up on stage with no material, I had nothing prepared. I didn’t even want to perform because I was moody, but I knew I needed to.

After I did my set I had two other comics say to me, “You didn’t even make any jokes, I don’t understand why you were given the prize. You’re jokes aren’t even funny. It’s just bc you’re an attractive girl.” Ouch!

The better I do, the more hatred and negativity I get… It’s as if their goal is to plant these seeds of insecurity in me so they feel better about themselves. It really bothers me bc this is supposed to be fun, but there are as many people who want to bring me down as much as those who want to see me do well.

I am coming to learn I only feel comfortable on stage by myself. It’s the only place I can be me and have fun. As soon as I get off stage, there are people telling me what I did wrong, how I messed up, and how I don’t know how to write a punchline. I even had someone ask me if I am jealous of them because they think they are funnier than me.

Achk!

Anyway, in short, thank you for letting me know you enjoyed my off the cuff humor! My goal when I get on stage is to gab like I would with my best girlfriends! Perverted, raw, and uncensored. I just want to find my voice on stage, be me, and have fun. I only care about the audience having fun with me and getting better at entertaining them. I hate it when people give me criticism without telling me what to do to make it better.

The fact that you enjoyed it enough to message me on facebook and say it was funny means the world to me. Have the most amazing day! You just made mine!

Much love, Khara